It has been almost a year since I first launched this blog/website!
I honestly feel like I haven’t utilised this blog completely which makes me wonder why and what has been stopping me from writing down my thoughts and completely go all out.
First, I overthink.
Most of this comes from the idea that I want the pieces that I’d want to publish MUST be at its best or in an ideal world, “perfect”, which is by the way impossible. I overthink every sentence. I overthink my grammar. Everything.
Second, I struggle with being consistent.
Success doesn’t happen overnight. This is something that we typically believe in but I haven’t internalised it. Consistency is a trait that I have’t been able to get a grip on and I am aware of my habit of putting my new ideas on the pedestal. Novelty just gives you the rush of adrenaline that we lack in our routine. It’s not entirely a bad thing as but I don’t like that it distracts me from doing what I essentially and initially wanted to achieve in the first place.
Third, I try too hard.
Nothing ever feels authentic when one tries too hard. From all the things that I’ve written before, the pieces that I’ve felt proud of were the ones that I felt genuine for and ones that I didn’t expect would do well. Writer’s block will always be there. Excuses will always appear if I allow them to cloud my motivation to just write.
So what happens next?
Well, it’s simple. I am pledging this to myself first and foremost, that I will be posting once every day for the month of September. Nothing huge. They wouldn’t have to be long articles like I usually would post. It’ll be a mix of reminders, lessons and random things that I’d learn over the next month.
If we are aware of ourselves, we actually learn something new everyday only if we have the heart to ponder and the eyes to not just see, but observe cautiously.
And let’s just call this “Project Self” and this is Day 1.