Some days I still struggle to get through the day. It would either be because I have to many unattended—not quite necessary—ideas or because I feel dry—as dry as the desert. Just because I have settled on having my own personal project(s), it doesn’t mean that I have everything figured out.
As someone who overthinks, I try to reason with everything so much so that it would sometimes distract me from achieving my daily goals or getting simple things done.
The possible reason behind this is simple.
We are information consumers. We inevitably expose ourselves to different strings of information including ones that essentially don’t matter to us. Sometimes, we feel so overwhelmed by them but we don’t know where to release that tension but instead, hold everything in. We’d control because that’s what a rational human being would do, right?
We’d consume even more, trying to find something to occupy our brains that would replace work and things that get our bills paid.
Just when I thought that was bad…
There’s something worse.
It feels even worse when we’d feel stuck or not going anywhere. It’s like you’re trying to do something but it could either be your fear of failure or irrational doubts that are stopping your from going into motion.
Sometimes, you’d question whether you are merely doing just for the sake of filling your time.
You just feel so out of… balance.
It’s okay. We’ve all been there. I’ve been there too.
Ease your thought process by expressing yourself
On days when I am out of balance, there is one thing that I’d do without even trying to find the reason why.
I doodle because it dumps all of the unnecessary information from my brain to where they should belong. I’d doodle words and scribbles of things that don’t necessarily have to go into my personal project(s).
It’s straight forward and simple. I remember on a day when I just couldn’t take it anymore. I grabbed my colour pencils, pens and notebook. I stayed away and just locked myself in the room for about half an hour. I kind of just let everything flow naturally.
To me, doodling has become important for my thought process so that I’ll only write and do things that would have a meaning or purpose. It’s also because I don’t know where else to channel that frustration out without feeling more tense.
After a productive session of doodling, I felt so good. My mind was no longer overwhelmed. The tense was gone and I felt so much better than had I only slept the problem over.
Doodling has helped me. A lot.
Obviously, you don’t have to go by my rule to express yourself.
What do you do to express yourself?
Finding “creative inspiration” by exploring
This one is dedicated to my unemployed friends or those who just don’t know where to start.
On my early stage of unemployment, it was so difficult to find what I wanted to do. But there was one thing that I was drawn towards most… it was writing my thoughts and feelings out. But that was it. I didn’t really have any directions or thought of it as something that I wanted to pursue seriously.
If you’re unemployed, it’s so easy to punish yourself thinking that you’re stuck. Let’s say you’re in that rut now; let’s say you haven’t figured out what your personal project(s) are.
Let me just say this: that’s okay.
And let me just say this too:
Stop trying to find what you love to do with the hopes to “feel inspired”. Realistically, you’ll only be wasting your time.
Still don’t know where to start? I am a firm believer that your nature will guide you on that.
What were you like when you were a child? What was it that you enjoyed doing most? What is one skill that you wished you had learned and developed? Cooking? Drawing? Painting? Running? Climbing? Carpentering? Photography? Anything.
Start exploring if you haven’t. You don’t have to spend and invest money on it just yet if you’re not comfortable. Whatever it is, start somewhere.
This was how I found that writing is what I’d like to pursue seriously. This was how I was no longer scared to “put myself out there” because whatever happens after this—whatever might come with my writing (or the lack of it), I honestly don’t mind. I will continue to write until the urge to do it will stop. Whether or not if I’ll ever reach my end goals, that’s a different story and that is really not my place to decide.
what do you find yourself doing that you just can’t stop no matter how many times you’ve failed? No matter how many times you’ve navigated yourself away from it, you’d keep coming back?
What do you find yourself doing when you just kind of don’t know what else to do?
(Please don’t answer sleep)
Whatever it is, you must start setting your priorities when you’re unemployed.
Don’t wait until you’ll settle into a job and only to find that you could’ve used your unemployment free time doing something that could’ve helped you develop or grow. You don’t need to start something big. Start small and start from within.
(For my Muslim friends, Remember Surah Ar-Ra’d:11? That Allah doesn’t change a condition of a people until they change what is in themselves)
This is the time for you to really dig deep but also not to forget to resurface. Find meaning and purpose to it so you’ll focus.
If you are going to choose to bring this to the next level—a business or something to make it as a living—you have to stop telling every other people about your plans. This is so important especially if you’d like to have discipline and hold yourself accountable if you haven’t done anything to it yet. Because the truth is? People would congratulate you and that’s it.
So, telling the right people is important as they’ll give you some directions and guidance. I mean, it’s always important to have a support system and someone to back you up, but those are the only people that need to know your plans.
The only thing left to do now is explore.
So, what now?
My basic rule of wanting to get things done have always been to express myself when I reach a dead end career-wise. Overwhelmed? Express yourself. Underwhelmed? Express yourself anyway.
I just thought self-expression could help you too, because it definitely has helped me especially if you’re a sensitive person.
Self-expression is an underrated means of self-care.
I guess that’s what I wanted to point it essentially.
Sometimes, speaking about your concern isn’t enough or perhaps—if you’re like me—you don’t just feel like talking about it. But it still bothers you.
If you love being creative, then use those emotions to express them into your art, poetry and writing—whatever it may be.
you just need a break from everything and take your time to heal from it.
In the end, I guess we all have our own little ways to thrive no matter what.